ok, i freaked out.
im not posting on this blog anymore.
end of story here.

EVERYONE has a dark side.

what's yours?

for my friend if she remembers.. we sort of 'bickered' when u learned that i shared ur blog with my colleague. i couldn't understand why u got so upset as i thought 'c'mon blogs are exposed & open, if u dont wana ppl to know abt ur affairs, don't blog. write a diary n hid it under ur pillow, duh!!!' i got disturbed by ur 'upset-ness' (there's no such word) and bitched abt it. anyway i was being very insensitive at that time because recently i understand hw u felt then. i realise i wasnt that comfortable with friends passing around my blog to others whom i did nt openly share i hv a blog. it is not a crime nor a violation that u guys share it with others but it's just me - im just not very chilled abt it. if i wan ppl to know abt the existence of my blog, i can do the job pretty well myself. alright, i've said my piece, go ahead n judge me, whoever!

as if one freaking lousy (times infinity) bad movie in a year is nt bad enough, today i had to add one more. anyway for record purpose, the first one is 'dragonball'. here comes the second one - a taiwan horror movie - 'Invitation Only'. i was appalled by this trashy low cost production coupled with the lamest storyline and plot that desperately needs alot of gruesome and gory scenes to advocate and create the sorriest and most useless excitement and scream that is totally way out of line!! i wana swear!! big time swearing! it was painful watching 'dragonball'. it was totally sorry for myself watching 'invitation only'. the only word and filled with huge emotion that flashed across ur mind once u 're out of the theatre is a BIG, fat, STRIKING - 'WHY??' word. seriously, the only reason someone suggested watching this film is coz of the movie star - maria ozawa. she's a porn star - a super popular japanese mixed with canadian blood porn star. ask the guys and MOST OFTEN, they know who she is. for clarification sake, i know nuts abt this girl. because of her, i wasted 2hrs plus $7.70. not worth the slightest bit at all. damn it.

yo! im christened. im christened. im christened.
baptised on 03102009 =)

i wonder when i will ever learnt; mayb immediate, mayb wks, mayb months, i do not know but i will surely be different one day. well, no one has a greater sense of humor than my Lord.

2 days ago, i came hm from work ranting away to my sister. i complained all 3 of my bosses (except for the 1st one; i had 4) were completely incompetent. they were worthless, wasteful, stupid, dumb, undeserving corporate dogs and i held serious contempt towards them! very scornful remarks. i said the word 'stupid' not less than 10 times until my sis was so disgusted i'd used that description on ppl! i do not hv faith working in a corporate environment anymore as im nt sure if i can contain my disdain towards my bosses or peers. then, my sis subtly stated the problem might in fact be me since the situation proved a 75% hit rate (3 out of 4). she urged me to go study more and real hard to be right on top and be invincible haha ie be literally on top of the pedestal. ok, she is 'suaning' me. anyway im in a fix.

so.. i was reading the bible just now. lo and behold, i caught this:

proverbs 29:23 -
"A man's pride will bring him low, But the humble in spirit will return honor."

remember i cursed n sweared ppl as STUPID?! let's see who's the STUPID one nw!!

proverbs 29:11 -
"A fool vents all his feelings, But a wise man holds them back."

finally, the Lord wants me to know this as He's teaching me:

proverbs 29:15 -
"The rod and rebuke give wisdom, But a child left to himself brings shame to his mother."

all in proverbs 29.

u know what, ppl? in my very own sincere opinion - the last person to believe in this world is fortune-teller! even this word on its own is REPULSIVE to me. it is not even a profession and can i bravely say they are in fact artists? it is a crime. don't judge me. i've seen enough fortune-tellers to make this paragraph. i was a fan; a huge fan. i'd embraced the excitement on knowing my unknown future. i'd wanted a reason, an answer for every mishap i've had and every failure i've had encountered. i'd liked to be filled with anticipation of what was told to happen and the action plan to take for avertion of disaster. like all ppl, i'd like to know im in control of my destiny, and i could do somethg to better my life. aren't all these so very exciting?! in all honesty ppl, do u seriously think it is even possible? can someone tell me when is the next financial meltdown? somethg like lehman. tell me when's the next hurricane like katrina. tell me what kinda flu is next. freaking tell me why fortune-tellers can't tell the fortune of the whole freaking world of all these major disasters that are affecting everyone including themselves and yet they are able to tell ur life stories and read u like a book. r u that special?? they in fact are VERY RANDOM and the last thing u will want to know is what exactly are they worshipping?! y do i strongly deny this grp of ppl? i was in desperation once and i turned to them many yrs ago. when a person is desperate, for every slight chance of a glimpse of hope, ppl try. that's hw fortune-tellers pin on this and exploit ppl, making you look like a fool and pay them to look and behave like a stupid, dumb ass. when all thgs failed, it is LIFE, your destiny, your fate. when thgs worked out, aha! worse! for all ur life, you're gonna believe more and sink deeper into this cult. seriously, i rather u are an atheist or agnostic than worship this grp of artists. ppl, get smart.